"You don't need to compromise
your kind heart,
to develop a thick skin.
Both will serve you in equal measure"
I grew up in a world where I was constantly made to question myself. I was undermined, and manipulated at every turn, which doesn't allow for someone to grow up feeling confident in themselves, or valued as a person. So, maybe the choice to start up a blog and put myself out there in such a way, was a strange one. Or just maybe, it's years of built up 'Kirsty' in there, just bursting to get out..
Over my 31 years of life, I've had many ups and downs, one thing that I'm grateful for is the fact that somehow I've always managed to turn that negativity around, and work towards seeing it in a positive light. In some instances, it's taken me YEARS to come to these realisations, others didn't take as much time. These days, with the benefit of hindsight, age, and (a little bit of) maturity, I find that I take a lot less time to figure it all out in my head. Not to say that it hurts any less, or that I'm not still a little broken on the inside, but I find that I can pick myself up from the hurt, and file it away in the "LEARN FROM THESE MISTAKES" folder of my mind for later reference.
The one thing that still gets me though, is when someone makes me question my own integrity. I have been called many names before, horrible ones, but now, that just makes me pity the person doing the name calling. Often times they have nothing more substantial to throw at you other than a few choice words. Every so often though, when I've let my guard down, someone sneaks in, and finds that tiny chink in my armour. They make me stop, and question myself... The way we view the world is relative to our own circumstances. Our own personal history has a lot to answer for when it comes to our outlook. So more often than not, in the case of someone trying to tear you down, it's not your actions that are making them question you, it's their own. If your intentions are pure, sincere, and true, then there's no need to question yourself.
Whether it be your choices as a mum, friend, wife or the decision to wear the same shirt several days in a row...
Live it, breathe it, own it.
Behind the blog...
‘The Mummysomniac’ is a lifestyle, motherhood and most recently, pregnancy blog, founded in 2015 by Kirsty McKenzie. She’s a mum of three, blogging about the highs and lows of motherhood, with a straight forward and honest approach, as well as a little bit of humour. Kirsty is passionate about sharing the realities of #MumLife, not the cookie cutter, high gloss version